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No Escape by FadingAqueous, literature

What I Need by FadingAqueous, literature

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What I Need

I feel like I’m drowning, when will it end? I don’t want to leave yet, I just want to hmend. This can’t be all there is to life, All this pain and constant strife. I can’t give up, it can’t happen. More rides on me than you can imagine. I’m more than just me, I’m also a mother, And my kids need me more than any other. I just want a chance, just one breath. Before all this chaos chokes me to death. I need someone to help me stand, Someone there to hold my hand. So in turn, I can be as strong as can be, Not just for them, but also for me. Please, tell me that you are the one, To be the

Hold On Little Seedlings by FadingAqueous, literature

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Hold On Little Seedlings

Little seedlings, all in a row, So anxious to fully grow. Hold on little seedlings. There’s so much for you to learn, Your petals and leaves you’ll soon earn. Hold on little seedlings. Enjoy the dirt and the sun, Don’t feel the need to jump the gun. Hold on little seedlings. Cherish every moment here, For you’ll grow more every year. Hold on little seedlings. Don’t try to grow too fast, Make every good time last. Hold on little seedlings.

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I'm fine by FadingAqueous, literature

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I'm fine

Frustration. Sadness. I'm stuck. The need to hide these feelings, to control them; an overwhelming feat. Need to smile. No right to show discontent. Stand up and help, the little amount is almost nothing. Wanting nothing more to sink into the dark unconsciousness of sleep. I don't want to get up. I don't want to eat. I want to stay. The covers warm and comforting. The pillows beckoning. "Rest your weary head." I can almost hear the invitation. Instead, I roll out of bed. Pick up the sleepy child who yearns for my touch, my breast. Who wants to be clean and fed. For the other children softly saying, "mommy, I'm hungry." As they rub the sleepin

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Another Year, Missing You by FadingAqueous, literature

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Another Year, Missing You

Here we go, another year has passed, So many things still remind me of you, And I can't believe time has gone by so fast. It's still hard to see the picture of your face, Listen to singers who seem to have your voice, But what hurts worse, is never again feeling your embrace. I miss all the good times, Hell, even the bad, Because even though there were tears and pain, I still had my strong, loving dad. And I sit, and do what I do every year, Look at your picture, sing sad songs, And wish so desperately that you were still here. I love you so much, it's more than I can bear, To not be able to talk to you, And the way you'd playfu

Goodbye Little Angel by FadingAqueous, literature

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Goodbye Little Angel

My heart exploded, I nearly died, When I saw just how little he cried. I know it's killing him, deep inside, I can see it when I look him in the eye. There's nothing I can do, nothing to save him, He never deserved a situation so grim. A good heart and soul has he, So how is it that this could possibly be? He's trying to be strong, I know he is, But I cant even imagine losing an angel like his. And soon he'll be on his way back home, To bury the happiest child he'd ever known. All I can do is sit and worry and cry, Silently asking God why now, why? Because this is a journey he must take alone, Back to the person who made his ri

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It Remains by FadingAqueous, literature

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It Remains

I miss you, and all the things I will miss out on, Its not right, this I know, I've got all that I need and more. It's sad it ended as swiftly as a knight takes a pawn, And not by our own selves, that's what hurts my core. But I do love him, I really do you know, with all my heart, I hate to think about you around him, it seems unfair. And it sucks that she had to be the one to tear us apart, But I found someone to be with forever, someone for whom which I care. Yet, I feel that I will never get rid of this shred of love, One that stays deep within my fluttering heart when I see your name. It's kind of like ripping off a rubber glov

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Dec 13, 1992
United States
Deviant for 13 years
She / Her

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NONE OF MY WORKS MAY BE USED IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM WITHOUT MY PERMISSION! THEY ARE ALL ORIGINAL, ALL MY OWN IDEAS! I DON'T STEAL FROM OTHERS I EXPECT THE SAME RESPECT! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

Me? I'm easy. Now you sir, you are freaking complicated. XP

Warning: Can be depressing sometimes, okay well, often.

Most of my work is poetry, and most is written through emotion. It's when i do my best work.

Some things about me: I am a mom, a violinist, a writer, a bookworm, a philosopher, a headbanger for life, caring, loving, protective, respectful (until given a reason to not be), overly sensitive to others, constantly trying to make the world happy, self conscious, and a bit of a dork. Oh! And I absolutely cant stand stupid people ಠ_ಠ

I love music, it is my life. And Emily and Adalynn, my beautiful daughters, are the very reasons I breathe. I have amazing friends, and an amazing boyfriend, and a dysfunctional family. I tend to try to maintain a relaxed lifestyle, despite my hectic life.

Sun Sign: Sagittarius. I am extremely interested in astrology ;D

Oh! And, just throwing this out there, Johnny Depp, DJ Ashba, and Robert Downey Jr. are sexy. <3

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-Ahhh look Jen, you so special, you get your own spot XD

Current Residence: Arizona, U.S
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Large?
Favourite genre of music: Alternative rock and metal mostly but I like many kinds (Rap, jazz, classical, etc)
Favourite style of art: All
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: no preference as long as it plays music
Skin of choice: O.o?
Favourite cartoon character: Bugs Bunny
Personal Quote: "It's all about her"

Favourite Visual Artist

Monet

Favourite Movies

Any great horror movie out there. Some romance, Comedy and Action. Dont really have a fav.

Favourite TV Shows

Family Guy, American Dad, NCIS, Life, How It's Made, ATHF, etc

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

TFK, RHCP, Slipknot, Eminem, 2Pac, Rammstein, Incubus, Vitamin String Quartet, Disturbed, Ray Charles, Etc.

Favourite Books

Horror, Romance, Mystery, Fantasy

Favourite Writers

Shakespeare, Edger Allen Poe, Ellen Hopkins, Darren Shan, and many more

Favourite Games

Mario, Zelda, Sonic, and Pokemon

Favourite Gaming Platform

NES, SNES, N64

Tools of the Trade

Pen, paper, Notepad, my mind, Dictionary, Thesaurus, etc

Other Interests

Reading, Writing, Music, Video Games, etc

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FadingAqueous

May 1, 2016

It's been a long time...

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It's been a long time, and I missed dA. May start posting things again. Been in the writing mood as of late. But first, an update. I finished school and am still with my fiance of 5 years. :) We now have 6 kids lol. 2 step children for me(his from a previous marriage) and 4 bio children. I have birthed 2 girls and 2 boys. No more for me. I got fixed XD I'm currently waiting to be enrolled into school for computer programming and I moved to Iowa. Still battling my depression and anxiety, but the kids and my amazing man help. I missed this. I missed being able to let loose and leave everything in the open. That's all for now. Hopefully I'll be

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FadingAqueous

Sep 10, 2012

Devious Journal Entry

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Been feeling really lazy and sluggish lately. I wanted to get school done ahead of time, but now Im just cruising along. I switch in and out of moods from happy to sad instantly and have no idea why. This depression is killing me. All I want to do is sleep. Been filling out applications like crazy. Gotta start going down to places, which I think I will do Thursday since Jory will have the day off and can watch the kids. Way to hot to drag them along with me. Writing a new erotic poem for my new small group that doesnt seem to have much going on in it. Then hoping to write a few more. My muse seems to not want to cooperate so I have no idea

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FadingAqueous

Aug 25, 2012

HEY

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Jory got home today around 1:30 this afternoon. Its been a really good day despite my brother threatening to call CPS on me in retaliation to calling them on Wendy (the person to whom everyone refers to as my mother) so I can get Jennifer out of that Hell-hole. And you all know what thats like. So I say bring it. They really wont have anything on me. I am a good mother. And housekeeper lol. Jory seems to be doing well despite his son no longer being with us, and we may be moving to Iowa to get into a custody battle with his ex to get the kids. Even her parents are going to help us out because of how horrible she is if that tells you anythin